The Pursuit of Perfection & its Many Hats

I've tried. I've tried and tried and tried--to be perfect that is. Make time for writing, reading, cleaning, cooking, schooling my daughter and myself, Italian class, friends and dates (with the hubby of course because otherwise it would be kinda weird.) Oh yes, did I forget sleep and fun? I fight myself constantly on trying to live an extraordinary life and a structured life all at the same time! I'm hoping it's possible but am not feeling very confident about it. I often get so overwhelmed with trying to do it all that I get less done. I suppose, like most people, I do best when I am organized. wake up at such and such time and get dressed and eat and so on. Yet, my creative mind doesn't always allow me to do that. When inspiration strikes I am forced to give in. I wonder what level of stress, if any, throws other people off track. I can handle a pretty high level but when it goes over, my brain just shuts down. I can't think straight and it drives me crazy!

I think of all the songs written about the many roles women play in just one lifetime. We change hats for each new scene. Our characters are like chameleons, changing to match the backdrop and whatever actor/actress we're co-starring with in each act. We wear a Chef's Hat for our families each night, a Referee Hat for our children, a Lover's Hat for our spouse (this will differ accordingly and that's as far as I wish to go with this one:) I've got a special Writer's Hat, it's called my hair clipped up and hanging all over itself like a Spider Plant....or Sideshow Bob's hair. Most important is the Night Cap, which I recommend if you wear all those hats on a regular basis.

I guess the moral is, we cannot be perfect--darn! Sometimes we'll forget and wear the wrong hat in the wrong scene. In these cases, I suggest the "Janet Jackson Maneuver," claim wardrobe malfunction. I figure, so long as we don't put the Night Cap on at the wrong times or the Lover's Hat on with the pool guy--uh, honey, we don't have a pool--we're doing ok. Sure, it may not be enough to win an Oscar, but maybe we'll secure the People's Choice Award. That's got to count for something.