Day 9

I guess, while I am implementing specific changes in order to make them a habit after 21 days, I'm also sort of trying to do one new and positive form of change every day. For day 9 I'm going to work on forgiveness and hurt. I find myself often turning heartbreak into anger because it hurts less to feel angry and feel empowered than broken and vulnerable. I will work on sharing my pain with someone close or putting my feelings onto paper (my ultimate friend and healing process--along with God of course) when they come up, instead of cramming them down and getting angry. This is a process--I believe--we all need to work on at times. We are, as Jo March says in Little Women, "hopelessly flawed." I will be the first to admit that, while I often tell my husband that, like Mary Poppins, I am "practically perfect in every way," I am actually more a Jo March than a Mary Poppins! Great, it's in writing now and in print on the Internet. Just for the record, if it comes down to it, I will deny admitting imperfection to the bitter end. I will claim that someone forced me to write this under threat of death by Epilady! I will not go down hairless and blotchy!

In my defense, I may have had more coffee than food this morning:) I'm sort of on a caffeine fueled writing bender. Yea! They're the best.